It's such a good feeling...

God's been challenging me recently. He's been insistent that I follow through on something He taught me through Daphne, during One on One. God will give us these positive thoughts about other people, and those thoughts are things He wants them to hear. He knows why, and it's our responsiblity to follow through on His desires. So I've been doing that.

It's crazy to think how much a little comment I make to another woman can alter her attitude. Imagine that day when everything is "off" - you feel "off," you feel like you look "off," and on those days, for me, if someone says just the wrong thing, I want to go "off" the deep end. So for someone to point out how much they appreciate my... or they really like my... or ask about where I got that cute..., it gets me focused on how He's blessed me. It signals to me, and maybe to the ladies I comment to, the idea of, "I see you!" God sees me, she sees me... I'm not invisible. I am important, am worthy, am valuable. It reminds me a bit of Mister Roger's Neighborhood. You know that part where he sings, "It's such a good feeling, to know you're alive. It's such a happy feeling, you're growing inside. And when you wake up ready to say, 'I think I'll make a snappy new day.'" It is a good feeling. You are making a snappy new day. You can be yourself, and she can be herself.

I try to ensure it's not simply superficial things I point out. But, I also try not to over-analyze what pops into my head. I'm striving for immediate obedience, not perfection. I don't have to understand, and I probably won't. Instead, when I feel Him leaning on me to say something, I say it... even if it feels uncomfortable. It's such a good feeling, to know He knows I'm alive. It's such a happy feeling, He's helping me grow up inside. And then I wake up ready to say, I'll do what you say God, today.